Nothing on earth to do

It is almost a month ago since the laste time I posted an article. Of course I couldn't write in Canada (because there was simply no internet) but, unfortunately, the other two weeks I have been busy with nothing. I don't know if you understand what I mean with my last words so let me explain; I'm always busy, even when there is nothing on earth to do, because I make myself believe that there is always something I have to do. And there is not much I can do about it. Sometimes I succeed in relaxing for half a day, but most of the time... I can't hold this relaxing any longer than an hour. Holidays to foreign countries are the only exception. I don't know why but when I'm abroad I can fully relax (if given the possibility), but that makes it even harder when I get back in the Netherlands.
My residence in Canada was absolutely amazing, I really like it there, except for the fact that the part where I stayed (about 200 km north from Toronto) was in some ways really American. On the other site, though, I really liked it because I never been to America and thought that this kind of stuff only existed in movies.
The only thing I have to do now is find a balance between the things that I want to do and the things I have to do.
Lots Of Love Luke
ps: the girl on the picture is Shakira.